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March 25th, 2008

05:28 pm - Work problems. Follow up on respect issues. So apparently at my job, my owner and boss are becoming suspicious of employees stealing money. My manager was one of those who was targeted which when I found out, infuriated me. How my boss and owner could imply she would do something criminal like that is beyond me. Especially when usually when finances dont add up, it's almost always at the fault of my boss rather than my manager or anyone else. I'm being vague with names because I dont want to disclose that stuff on here, but still feel the need to bitch about it. They're so cheap. All they care about is making a few bucks and they let friendship and trust fly right out the window. It bothers me so much. It's really only within the past year out of the near two and a half years I had been there that I've come to realize the ugly truth of all this. Not to mention, the one being accused has also informed me that I also am under suspicion for something else, but she doesnt know since apparently they wish to keep it confidential. I suppose I'll be finding out soon, too. Whatever problem they have I don't know what it is, but I know I've done nothing but be a faithful employee since I've been working there. The minute they point a finger at me and that trust is blurred, I'm out. I'm done. I've dealt with jobs in the past that have been run by owners that have exploited and disrespected me countless times and I'll do now what I did then, I'll simply leave. Fuck that. Again. Those who can't fucking respect me, I don't have any fucking time for. That goes for family, lovers, friends, employers, everybody. Don't slander my name because of your own paranoia. Simple as that. Fuck this. I'm gonna do homework to get my mind off of this. Egh. Ja. Current Mood: infuriated

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March 24th, 2008

05:28 pm - Growing a backbone. I'm making some changes. And I've gotten past the point of worrying if my decisions are good or bad, and I'm just making them. I was told by a very special person on Easter to live my life without the words "fear" or "guilt" in my vocabulary. And I'm learning sometimes self-preservation isn't necessarily such a selfish thing, but sometimes can be the only answer to a problem. There are a few select people I need to dissolve ties with in my life. And rather than worrying about this or that, I'm just doing it. They dont deserve to have me as a friend. Anyone who cannot have the decency to respect me does not deserve my friendship. I need to stop feeling guilty or afraid of how they may react and I need to just do it. However, for those that have been there for me. That have valued and respected me as I've done for them, thank you. It means the world to me. And I pray our friendships will never get to a point as such has happened with certain individuals. I've only had to end ties with... as of now... three people in my life. I hope the number doesn't ever have to go any higher than that - but if need be, well then, I suppose it must. To brighter days, and brighter smiles. Ja. Current Mood: relieved Current Music: Boot Scootin' Boogie - Brooks and Dunn

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March 23rd, 2008

09:48 am - HAPPY EASTER!!!!! Hope everyone has a great holiday and gets to spend it with family and friends that they love. ^^ Ja ne~! Current Mood: discontent

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March 20th, 2008

08:10 pm - Rest in Peace Great Grandma Today.. has been a bit difficult for me as of 4:30 this evening... I called my grandfather who is up in Pennsylvania with his sister to take care of my great grandmother who had been in the hospital for quite some time now. Initially it started with a fall, she fractured a few things here and there and due to her old age, could not receive any major surgery to fix her injuries. After going through some rehab, she showed signs that her condition was worsening and last week we had found out she had blood clotting in her leg. Everything sort of went down hill from there... and she passed away around 12PM this afternoon at 92 years old. Of course I'm sad, but Ill be okay at least. Who I am more concerned about is my grandfather, afterall she was his mother, and losing a parent is something I've never experienced before so I can only imagine what he and my (great) Aunt Phyllis are feeling. The good thing is that she died peacefully, without any pain thanks to the doctors and nurses at hand. Plus she died right there with her children at her bedside - which is how I'm sure she would have wanted it. I just try to think she's with her husband now and happy... so any desire or wish I may have to want her to still be around is selfish on my part and that she's better off where she is now. It's just so scary to think about death, and when someone close to you dies, it really hits you that we humans are not as indestructible as we try to make ourselves believe. There is supposed to be a funeral soon for her in Pennsylvania - a definite date hasn't been set - but I was told by my grandfather not to go up there... He's more concerned about me not missing class and not worrying about any of this. He said something which really struck me... and even hurt a bit, but was completely and utterly true. "You've seen too many funerals, last thing you need is to go to another." He's unfortunately... absolutely right. There have been a lot of deaths in this family... all within a short time of eachother. It saddens me alot, but I suppose it's a fact of life. Everyone must meet their maker eventually. Well, just felt like I needed to get some emotions out. Bye, Grandma. I love you a lot and I hope you're happy where you are. You'll be dearly missed by me, and by everyone else in our family. Current Mood: sad

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March 18th, 2008

08:39 pm - It's so easy. It's so easy to push things away. To push people away. To isolate yourself completely. I am beginning to think that is what I've been doing lately - not necessarily on purpose, but then again, not necessarily by accident. What's weird about it, is this is something I would normally be depressed about, but for whatever unknown reason I feel relatively indifferent. The only thing going through my mind is work. Study. Work. Sleep. Get an education. Get a job. I believe that I've officially become a work-a-holic. But I don't know if it bothers me either. The only thing that bothers me... is just... people. I don't know what's caused me to enter this hermit stage. I'm not happy, but I'm not sad. It's more like... numb. My only goals and aspirations as of late have involved me growing more independent, more self-sufficient. I've no desire to enter another relationship. The one I was in last affected me too much anyway that I dont think I could devote myself to anybody like that for a long time anyways. I've no desire to make any extreme attempt to keep in contact with my friends. Those who wish to stay in my life I'm sort of leaving it up to them to keep in touch with me, and that's selfish, I know. Same with my family though - my mother and father have made attempts to contact me, as well as my sister - hell haven't been at Tiff's house in about 2 or 3 weeks... And the trip to SC at the end of the month is more of a therapeutic thing for me than a strong desire to see my family as I had expressed previously. I feel like I'm changing. But I dont know if it's good or bad. I know it will make me stronger - but is that going to be at the cost of something else? And strange enough, though I'm voicing the thoughts in my head, this isn't something of high concern to me. At least i dont think it is. It's more like just something casual to rant about. Hm. Well, back to homework. I have some poetry to read. Maybe I'll get a jumpstart on the stuff due Thursday too, because I have to work tomorrow night and don't want to stress myself out. Mata ne. Current Mood: blank

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08:40 am - Quick update. Well I got my taxes done this week, yay~ *cheering and confetti*!!!! Buuut now I'm back in class. Lol. I have an okay seminar. Most of the people seem to be there for the purpose of learning and discussion which makes me a bit relieved because most of the kids I've seen there are there to party and dont give a shit about their education. My professor reminds me alot of my stepdad, Todd. It's weird. And he has his same smart-hardass cynical attitude toward life but throws in some humor there too. Basically he walked in the class, explained that NCC was BS and he was going to give it to us straight. So naturally, I like him. lol. The juggernaut (my buick) is down for the count again. Once it gets fixed, something else needs replaced - it's really starting to get annoying. So I'm being tossed around from person to person in order to get around this week. Lizzie's driving me in the mornings while I have my sister and my boss, Perry helping me get home in the evening lmao. I feel so pathetic not having a vehicle. Grandad is taking the truck to PA today because he needs to go see his mother (my great grandmother). She has a blood clot in her leg and she's in critical condition, while major surgery is just as lethal to her because she's old... so it's only a matter of time before she dies I think.... I'm worried because I know my grandad is going to be so sad. =/ But yeah. Trucking along as things hit the windshield, heh. Off to school. Ja matta. Current Mood: working

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March 16th, 2008

10:17 am - And the dreams get stranger... I must be working on overload in the real world lately because i've never had so many dreams and hard-to-sleep nights like I have over my two week Spring break. Friday night i dreamed of being raped, prostituting myself, destroying relationships, getting in bad car accidents, abandoning my friends, finanical crises, and god knows what else. And then last night I've been having school-related horrors with the likes of getting stuck with my professor from unit 3 again, having a certain coworker in my class that im not fond of *cough*, dealing with uncomfortable situations or confrontations, etc. I dont think I've honestly had a peaceful night's rest ever since I got on vacation. I know probably a lot of you dont look too much into dreams and this post means little to you, but to me it's making me realize all of the freaking problems and insecurities of my past and present that are laying dormant in my brain; and how they can easily seep out when you're off-guard sleeping. Kinda scary when they say how we only use about 10% of our brains. Makes you wonder what's laying underneath the surface. Egh. ::shudder:: Ah well. May as well try to keep my mind off of things. Ho na. Current Mood: curious

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March 13th, 2008

02:45 pm - Pick up lines? Alright. So as everyone knows, I've been working. Alot. So my Spring Break has been primarily spent at the lovely Potomac Mills Mall. -_- Yesterday there was a group of boys that walked by my store and I was sitting at one of the tables in the food court drawing a picture of a Chinese general (yes im a dork, we know this, stfu I was drawing Huangfu Song from DW, he's got a cool name, nuff said.) And one of them came up to me saying my drawing was really nice. So he took it upon himself to sit down and said "draw me." Mildly taken aback I would have said no, but honestly I wasnt busy and since I was stuck at the mall until closing time, I couldnt just walk off from the guy. So I took out another piece of paper and did a 5 minute rough portrait of him. I wanted to do the drawing quick, and get him off my case. During those five minutes he proceeded to ask if I was single, if he could take me to the movies, then began making comments about my chest, TOOK my phone and plugged in his number. By this point obviously I was highly uncomfortable, gave him the picture and told him strictly that I was not interested. He ended up texting me later that night and this morning of which I had ignored until I realized the guy wasn't going to leave me alone. So I told him, quite boldly, i didnt want anything to do with him and thats the last time I heard from him. Sooo hopefully my ass isnt going to get raped now that he obviously knows where I work. --- The point of this? One I wanted to rant about the disgust I feel about how the nineteen year old guy approached me. Two, it's making me realize how and why I began to hate men to begin with. Within five minutes of meeting a girl talking about how nice their breasts are? Jesus Christ. What the fuck is wrong with you guys????? I honestly hope the rest of the male race isn't like this, but heh, it seems like from what I've noticed, a big majority of men are. I swear. Maybe someone put a sign on my back saying "I'm available, please, feel free to disrespect and degrade me." Who the hell does he think he is!? ARGH. ANY man that tries to hook up with a girl like that... I just dont understand - do you THINK we want to hear that!? I'm not some insecure trashy whore who needs to be told "your breasts are nice". FOR ONCE. JUST PLEASE. SEND SOMEONE MY WAY WHO CAN THINK WITH THE OTHER HEAD. Now that I'm thoroughly aggravated and disgusted, I'm going to finish getting ready for work. Ja. Current Mood: dirty

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March 10th, 2008

11:42 pm - More College / Career Opportunity Stuff. Okay. So have any of you ever felt like something was.... like... your calling in life? I am really starting to feel confident about this Chinese thing. Immediately after I had started considering taking the Chinese language course over this summer, a lady by the name of Brenda Phelps came up to me representing a large business firm (T & E International) and she was looking for students interested in going abroad for an opportunity to travel to China and go see the Olympics there while doing small vendor services for her company. The trip, Olympics ticket, housing, food, EVERYTHING except the usual spending money - completely covered and funded for. I was like... omg. Let me pee myself please. Anyways, she's going to call me tomorrow night with more information on this stuff and will let me know ASAP if she can get the tickets - she'd be traveling with me as well. She seems pretty reliable, ive checked out the site, the company, have done multiple interviews with her, and possibly might be able to attend a company meeting this wednesday to get more information, she was offering to talk to my grandad too if he had any worries or concerns. She's a very sweet lady ^^ I really hope this ends up working out because dude. Omg. Trip to China. And it's be on August 18 for 4 days so it doesnt interfere with my summer class, and by then i'd be relatively familiar with the chinese language so this is an opportunity that should not e taken lightly!! ^^ Aside from that, I went to work today - nothing real eventful. Came home, looked up some scholarships - one of which I need a letter of reccomendation for which I ought to be able to get easily. Also checked out some internship and scholarship opportunities of working with the CIA for this following summer '09 to get a good start on career stuff - though im not too sure yet if i want to join them. Just a thought. Anyways. Think I might have strep throat. Started on some antibiotics and I've been drinking a lot of hot tea to soothe it all. Sam said I was officially a walking pharmacy because of the amount of medication I've been on these last few days. But I'm getting better which is always a good thing. Well I think I'm gonna pick up my RoTK novel and read a bit, diddle around and watch tv, then get some shuteye. I gotta open tomorrow but I took a nap earlier so I should be okay. Sorry for the obnoxious post. I'm just so excited that I feel like I know where my life is going and it's going to involve something I love! ^^ To think. It all started with a videogame, haha. Oyasumi~! Current Mood: excited

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March 9th, 2008

09:53 pm - Allergies. So as of yesterday morning, I apparently have gotten an allergic reaction to something completely unknown and it had been getting increasingly worse over the last 24 hours. This morning I went to an Urgent Care clinic and they injected an IV in me with some sort of steroid stuff... gave me a benadryl shot and also prescribed me steroid pills, atarax pills, and an antibiotic. -__- Sucks to have something try to kill you and you dont even know what the hell you're allergic to. So yeah... xD Didnt go into work today but I'll be opening tomorrow, so whoo. On another note - been utilizing the time at home to knock out some college things. I've decided I'm not going to SC for the summer, nor will I be getting any internships, so unfortunately I'm stuck at Candy World haha - but I'm going to take an Elementary Chinese Language course at Mason Mon-Thurs 8:30AM-12:00PM from June 2nd to July 24th. That way I have a productive thing to do this summer and wont be home eating bored out of my mind lmao, plus it's something i love to do/learn, and it'll get me 6 credits ahead of the game and make it so i have an easy load to deal with fall semester. For fall 2008 semester, i pretty much have my classes picked out: 212 Religions of the Orient 120 Sociology: Globalization and Society 110 Ecosphere: Environmental Science 1 (lecture and lab classes) 201 Intermediate Chinese 1 (and if i want the option, i can take another class... but meh there's 13 credits and i dont want to overload myself again like i did with NCC. lol) Also, i went ahead and joined the NSCS - National Society of Collegiate Scholars... it's kind of like an honor roll thing. Doing community service is an option.. but being a member you get access to scholarships and study abroad opportunities that they have. It looks good on resumes, so if all else fails, i can just put that on there. Well i think thats it. Alrighty~ Ja ne. Current Mood: pleased

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March 8th, 2008

08:59 am - Egh. Hm. I feel mildly bummed but calm this morning. Perhaps it's the weather? I dunno. Turns out Sarah isnt going clubbing with us anymore which makes me sad ;-; I missed her so much. The tickets for Benny are like 25 bucks and im starting to feel financial strain until i get my next paycheck, egh. Aaaand I think a certain person is ignoring me for a reason I'm not quite sure of yet. Ah well, I can't help it I suppose. Well time to finish getting ready for work. I'm still optimistic, hoping today will be a good day. >.> Ho na. Current Mood: blah

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March 7th, 2008

10:06 am - Stress = the theme of the week. You know, even though I've gotten my projects done for school and everything and I'm supposed to be enjoying my Spring Break... it's kind of funny that I still feel equally as stressed. The last two days I've had quite a few nightmares and nights filled with mild insomnia and headaches waking up in the morning. Usually these symptoms only arise when I'm under a lot of pressure. Yes while I have been working everyday - maybe that's been the problem I don't know. But the dreams I have don't really connect to that. Actually a lot of the nightmares I've been having deal with zombies or decaying / dying things chasing me - which some of you may think cool, but for those who know me I'm terrified of LOL. I'm also having dreams in some form or another having to deal with responsibilities of saving or helping other people and not being able to solve the problem, or dreams where I am trying to avoid falling in traps. What's really odd are in some of the dreams I recognize figures and other ones I don't. There was a little girl who I didn't know, in one of the dreams Jay was in it, and in another one it was my NCC study group (Jesus christ lol). So.. maybe it's college and relationships that are stressing me out? I'm not sure honestly. I think it might be the stress involving the unknown. Like with school we have a new unit coming up and i dont know anything about what we'd be doing - plus i dont know my grade from my previous unit so i guess that could lead to anxiety as well. And lately I haven't been talking to Jay much - not out of avoidance or anything... but it still seems things haven't been resolved between us and it's starting to bother me. Hm. ---- On a more happy note, last night I had a good time with Rhonda, Chris, Lizzie, and Kat. We all grabbed sushi and went to see Be Kind Rewind. Lizzie left in the beginning of the movie because she was tired and went home, but the movie ended up being really good. It wasnt as funny as you would expect it to be - there were funny parts - but the movie was a bit more sentimental. o_O Odd for a Jack Black film. Anyways Kat crashed at my house when we got home and she left really early this morning. Hopefully I can see Rhonda and Chris again before they leave. Tonight I might have to babysit after work. Saturday I do opening shift and then going clubbing to see Benny Benassi. Aaaand Sunday back to work again. =D Yay. -_- Well time for me to get showered. Lizzie and I are heading up to Mason today. Jya. Current Mood: sore

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March 4th, 2008

05:53 pm - Friends After yesterday's relentless work ive been putting into my paper, I only have 1000 more words to type to finish by tonight which im hoping ill be able to get done easily. With all the stress i was feeling a bit down last night and Rick came by with a surprise visit. ^_^ It made me feel a lot better to have some sort of human contact last night because i had been cooped up in my house all day. Anyways we watched some Futurama and South Park and hung out for a bit which was nice to have a break, so thank you hun for coming to see me. :) I opened this morning at work and omg it was soooo dead. So I brought like 6 hours worth of research homework to do with me so that way I could knock out the rest of my paper by tonight (it's due at midnight i think). Anyways Booty (Martin) happened to be at the mall and it made me really happy to see him since he couldnt go to katsucon and it had been forever since I last saw him. Then up behind me Kat popped up out of nowhere - whom I hadnt seen since like winter break pretty much. She's in town on her spring break so she'll be crashing with me tonight and thursday night - which is nice to have the company around with my grandad being out of town all the time, heh. Then lizzie ended up showing up to hang out while i was working making me even happier and lol my other friend emily i ran into at the mall today too! I hadnt seen her since I graduated, so me, Lizzie, Kat, and Emily all chilled for a few hours waiting for my shift to end. I also met Emily's bf Joe who is amazing and they all invited me to a St. Patty's Day Party on the 15th next weekend which was really nice of them. Thing is, I think I work that day. Turns out my work schedule is going to be even tighter than I thought because Ayushi (boss's daughter) her spring break finishes at the end of this week, so it's just me and perry next week because Cathy (co-worker) her spring break begins next week and she'll be out of town. [sigh] It's really starting to bog me down but I really dont have a choice. =/ So if during the times I'm working, any of you have a chance to visit me, please do - it makes the shift go by so much faster when the mall is dead and there's nothing to do, lol. Well time to get crackin' on the last stretch of this paper! Wish me luck. Ho na. Current Mood: loved Current Music: Country music

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March 3rd, 2008

07:48 pm - Moving...? So I've been thinking lately... about a small proposal my mother gave me when I was talking to her on the phone yesterday at work. "You should think about coming down here, at least to stay for the summer... it'd be like leaving college to come back home for a while..." She even told me I could go down there and get a job easy. South Carolina during the summer is always busy and all.. I could probably work at an amusment park - they have one hiring down there that's just opening up... and to work for the season. That way I can see what it would be like living down there since I was thinking of moving there at some point anyway. The idea just seems so nice... and since it's only for the summertime, I suppose it wouldn't be too bad. There's really only one person keeping me here anyway - otherwise I would have moved long before now. I really dont have a sense of belonging here, either. I mean I had already been contemplating switching colleges. I was thinking University of Virginia, but I'm not sure if I'd be happy there either. At least in S.C. I'd have my family. But who knows... maybe I can find a school down there to go to. Maybe I'm looking at this too ideally. And I can't shake off the feeling that I'm running away. But the proposition just seemed too tempting... I suppose I'll sit on it a while longer. I just... I'm trying to figure out what I'm searching for. And it's not a thing, it's a feeling. It's a feeling that I only recall getting here and there during the summer - maybe I just do better in warmer weather... but I feel like I can't get it here because... here... both physically and metaphorically... this place is just... so cold. I want that old feeling of riding on the wind again. It's been too long. I miss it so much. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Boot Scootin' Boogie - Brooks and Dunn

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01:17 pm - Dododododo~ So apparently my good mood has been spoiling other's lately. Figured maybe I should apologize, but being in a relatively happy state seems to be something odd to apologize about. With the stresses I've had going on with my final projects and work, I figure it wouldn't be too bad of a thing to try to find the best of a situation and try to keep a happy face on. I've been depressed for so long that I grew tired of it. Lol I'm sorry for not being sorry for something like that? Anyways... in other news. Last night was a bit of a train wreck into the early hours of the morning. Been extremely worried about some good friends of mine - I like keeping my posts vague so deal with it - but yeah... ended up getting a late start on my homework that's due Wednesday.. and went to bed pretty late. So far this morning i've been working on the Irish immigration paper that i have to do. Got all of the research and am like a fourth way done with it. As for the 3500 word paper on China that i'm doing, ive gotten like 20% of the research done and nothing typed. This is where I enter panic mode, heh. And originally i had planned using all of today getting my work done, but i forgot i needed to do some apartment searching, so Lynn, Jerry and I are all going to look at a place today, so we'll see how that goes. Talked to Chris today. We're gonna try to do dinner on Thursday evening. It's been forever since I've seen him, I love him to death XDDDDDDDDD Maybe I can get Rhonda to go with us too. And on Friday afternoon I have an academic advising appointment, basically trying to figure out what the hell im going to do with my college career, haha. Man it's cold in here. :0 But yeah. Lots to do. Stress stress stress. Sayonara~ Current Mood: pensive

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March 2nd, 2008

08:53 pm - Busy busy busy!!! So, wow, I've been like... not around the internet for the past few days - some people have been complaining about my lack of presence, haha. I swear, I have an explanation! XDDD Work. Mainly anyway. I've worked every day since Thursday. Closed that night, closed Friday, opened Saturday, and closed today. Hehe. Earning loooots of money for that Xbox muahaha then Dynasty Warriors 6 will be mine! >:D Oh man though, Saturday was awesome! I did opening shift like I said, and it was super busy so it made the time go by, then i headed home to freshen up a bit (aka get the sugar and gummi bears out of my hair lol jk) and then Scully picked me up to go out to eat ^^ We grabbed sushi and dinner at that Tokyo Japanese Steakhouse by the mall to celebrate his 18th birthday (mmmm legal lmao, kidding, kidding!) and went home to eat cake, play some videogames, and watch kung fu movies (hell yeah!) which was alooot of fun. I havent had time to hang out with anyone really so i enjoyed it alot, then he dropped me off at like 1AM or something late heh XD I totally crashed and slept in til 11~ Today at work though sucked ass XD the customers were annoying. i kept getting the deaf / half dead old people asking me the same questions over and over and then complaining about the prices, lmao. But i got a call from my RIZZIE (lizzie) and we grabbed tacos at on the border. It was our taco-flavored-keeses date. :D I missed her a lot - again i hadnt seen anybody because of my work schedule, but this cheered me up tons. Duude. on the way home, I heard Queen playing on the radio. I rocked the fuck out. I love them XD Sooo now Im currently on a Queen kick and d/ling all of their songs lmao. On another note, I think I wanna plan for Amanda to come down and hang out. I miss her since Katsu. Money's always an issue though =/ Oh and speaking of traveling - I got work called off for the last weekend of March so I can go and see my family, yay!!!!! ^_________^ Wow. I'm really giddy tonight. :3 Jya~~~~! Current Mood: happy Current Music: QUEEN! <3

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February 27th, 2008

04:51 pm - Thoughts.. I'm feeling negative things slowly seep in again and I'm trying to do everything I can to distract myself. I'm beginning to wonder if I'm running away from my problems rather than getting over them... perhaps there's a fine line there I'm walking on and maybe that's why it feels that way. I'm so wishy washy when it comes to important decisions. I'm trying to change that, take responsibility and make a decision, then stick with it. Because no matter what, in cases like these, I never know what the right thing is to do, so I can only pick a path and hope it leads me the right way. Egh. Honestly? I'd like to be happy again. I'm hoping when the warm weather comes by then I will be. I'm always depressed this time of year. ::shakes head:: Anyways. Big presentation tomorrow on how China's map has transformed throughout history from the Ming period to modern day China. Oh yay. And I work tomorrow. Blah. I want to go for a drive. Not just any drive... but a long 8 hour drive to South Carolina. And just stay there for a while. I'm really starting to hate Virginia. It's even reflected in my educational life too - I've been thinking about studying abroad in China for my sophomore year. Just to get me the hell out of here away from these people. I really ought to call up a therapist. This is driving me nuts. Ja mata. Current Mood: sad

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February 25th, 2008

08:40 am - This week... ...is going to be very stressful. We're in the last stretch and then Spring Break is coming up. I have two ridiculous projects due between this Thursday and Sunday. One is a group project and we haven't even started. Getting them together to meet is like pulling teeth. And the second is an electronic portfolio. They gave us no instruction as to what we're supposed to have on there, so I'm like... grabbing in the dark, heh. Once Spring Break hits, I have to work every freaking day because my boss will be in India. That means no South Carolina trip for me. [Sigh]. And I'm really missing my family too. The plus? I'm saving up for an Xbox with said money and that way I can buy Dynasty Warriors 6. Whoo~! Off to school. Ja ne yo. Current Mood: nauseated

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February 14th, 2008

09:02 pm - Valentine's Day. So I made today a "pamper Elleka day". Since my car hasn't been working right and my grandfather left for PA this morning, rather than risking breaking down on 123 this morning, i decided to take the day off and not go to class. Before you all shake your finger at me, at least know I used some of the time today to work on a report of which I have due Monday - so it's not like I was being lazy with my work or anything. Lounged around for a bit, then when Lynn came back from classes, she joined me in a nice little trip around woodbridge to the mall, the nail place, and taco bell XD Totally got a pair of shoes and 2 pairs of really cute stockings for 20 bucks at hottopic. Hell yeah, what a find! Then I got a pedicure done. Needed one badly. I still had freaking nailpolish on there from like August. Lol. Lastly got me a fiesta platter and chowed down on it. Good stuff. Now I'm typing here... packing a few things... and then will go to my sister's to pick up a check and hang out for a bit. Probably should hit the bank while I'm at it, also, cash is always good to have on hand. Heh. This post sounds so boring. It's probably reflecting my mood though. Relatively blah. And full. :D Jyyyaaa. Current Mood: full

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February 12th, 2008

09:43 pm - Katsucon... Everywhere I go... that's all I see, it's all I hear about... it's like impossible to go through a day without hearing about it. Freaking Katsucon. Either someone's calling me to talk about the con, someone's posting a bulletin on Myspace about it, or a blog or comment here... or I check my inbox and people are sending me stuff about it through messages. It's just like.. in order to not have to hear about it, I'd have to cut out every from of communication and every friend to get away from it. It's not like I hate the con and I want everyone to have a bad time or not go - it's just that I honestly don't want it rubbed in my face left and right. Maybe I'm over reacting. I probably am. I've been so fucking moody tonight it's not even funny. Maybe I should sleep. And wake up starting anew tomorrow. Yeah. Maybe that'll do it. Sorry guys, I know I'm crazy. -_- Oyasumi. Current Mood: crushed

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